I honestly do not remember what I had wanted when I was younger. Or when I was a little older, for that matter. Lol! A lot has happened and I have changed, including my preferences. I am talking about whether I wanted to get married or not. I do recall telling friends at one point how complicated it could get (I like making my own decisions, thank you very much) and what a hassle it could be (like changing names for example).
Being relatively successful (and definitely happy) in my career in my mid and late 20s, I was too busy having fun. I was not aware then what I know now, but I wanted to have a baby. I believed I could raise one alone. I suppose it was a classic case of being careful (or not) what you wish for cause you might just get it. I realized too late even if I could (not a walk in the park for sure), it was not good for my child.
I did not know what it was about being a single mother that made me want to avoid relationships altogether. I dated, yes, but not seriously. That is, until I met someone who made me see how wonderful being in a loving and committed relationship could be. That is, until he broke our engagement, and my heart.
At first I thought I would not even want to go out again. But I realized I do want what I had with him. I may be back to square one (or worse) but it is reassuring to know for certain what exactly it is that I want. This time I will consciously wish for someone I could trust (and more importantly would not disappoint me) again.
Today we celebrate my father’s 70th birthday and my parents’ 45th wedding anniversary. I suppose I could still have this! I wish I had an earlier start, but hey, this is what it is! Never too late!
Like Stephen Covey said, Habit 1 is begin with the end in mind. Are you clear on what you want?
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