In addition to my grateful journal and this blog, writing has been keeping me busy lately. In my quest to becoming better, it is crucial that I know myself intimately then build on that.
It has been a very interesting 100 days. Here are 10 of them I enjoyed the most.
Day 1 (May 1). Who are you?
I do not know where to begin.
I am 36 years old, female, single, living in the Philippines with my 7 year old daughter Sophia.
I am going through a rough time right now, and I am learning a lot. For the last year, I have been obsessed with self development. This question is something I have been trying to answer for the past few months. I believe getting to know myself is the first step. I want to work on my weaknesses and build on my strengths.
My weaknesses – a list of my weaknesses.
Now what are my strengths…
I am very creative when it comes to making money. And given my plans to move or at least explore the world with my daughter (and hopefully a hot older man with a big heart!) I could use this skill. I am kind, and I believe, or at least I hope, that it will go a long way into building rewarding relationships with people who are important to me. I would remember to always choose to be kind.
I am very loving (and sweet if I put my mind into it). I miss being in a committed relationship with a man who accepts me for who I am and pushes me to be the best version of myself. I would support him with his dreams and always be loving and kind. Whenever we have disagreements, I promise I will be patient and understanding and will not sleep fighting. Literally, make love not war.
I am easy going. I try to avoid conflicts if I could. Because, why not? I would rather laugh and be loving than cry and be angry. I am so very easy to please. I want time and attention, not gifts and jewels.
I have the ability to laugh at myself. And make jokes when I am mad and sad. This trait is something that I treasure so much.
I am not there yet, but I want to be someone who brings sunshine wherever I go. To be a source of positive energy, and touch as many lives as I can and make a difference.
Day 5 (May 5). What are the 3 biggest things you’ve learned in life to date?
- Trust my heart. Sometimes it’s ok not to think. Sometimes I need to feel more than think.
- Choose kindness. And love. Always.
- Life will not always go according to plan. Make sure I have an (and is at peace with) Option B.
Day 6 (May 6). What advice would you give to yourself 3 years ago?
- Enjoy your life, Sarah. You’re gonna have a good 2 years before a heartbreak, make sure you get the most out of your experience.
- Be strong, Sarah. You’ve yet to go through the worst time of your life. It’ll be tough, but you’ll survive.
- Take one day at a time, Sarah. Whether going through a great time, or not so great, you’ll learn that these moments pass, too. So when it’s good, savor it. When it’s not, I promise it will get better.
Day 8 (May 8). What are you worried about? Will it matter 3 years from now?
I am worried about my and my daughter’s future. I am almost convinced I want to leave the Philippines. Unfortunately, it will matter in 3 years. That is my target date to migrate to a better country. Right now, I’m eyeing Australia. But if a certain good friend helps me establish a new life in New Zealand, then I’d consider that, too. It is scary, but at the same time, I will test my limits again and stretch myself and that is exciting, too!
Day 16 (May 16). What is something you regret doing? Is it affecting you to this day?
I so regret not boarding a plane to Singapore before the lockdown last year. I try not to let it bother me, but sometimes I still could not help but wonder what could have been if I did. More on this here Happy 56th birthday, Singapore!
Day 26 (May 26). How can you make your life more meaningful starting today?
- Live a more mindful life.
- Appreciate the small things.
- Cultivate important relationships.
- Learn something everyday.
- Spread positivity.
- Feel my emotions.
- Love unconditionally.
- Be kind to everyone.
- Find my purpose.
- Just live.
Day 44 (June 14). What would you want to say to yourself 3 years in the future?
Fuck it bitch, you fucking made it! (Please excuse the crass language)
Day 61 (July 1). Write 10 things you would like to say yes to:
Day 64 (July 4). Write one thing you wish others knew about you:
Sometimes I smile and laugh even if I feel like crying.
Day 100 (August 19). What are you going to do differently after completing this challenge?
I will always try to be mindful and continue to discover the (hopefully wonderful) person that I was, am and becoming. But more than that, I will be more intentional in striving to be a better person.
It has been fun getting to know myself a little better using this book. Day 99 is “Again… who are you?” and I am like “again… what?” Some of the questions are relatively easy, but some requires more than a few minutes. I am glad I did this.
More on getting to know myself here: Would You Rather Reflect Or Be Unconscious
Would you like to try, too?